Today, I got disappointed and maybe a bit angry because of something. But I sent sms as “I don’t care” to her.
I practice to draw my feelings these days. At that moment I felt quite eager to draw. And then came the following pictures. It took me an hour, from 1pm to 2pm.
It is said that you can read a person through his/her painting. Luckily the photo didn’t catch many details.
At about 2:30pm, a sms came from her, saying she did care the “I don’t care”, might be “I don’t mind” was more at the point of what I meant.
OH my Buddha! What a disgrace!… I did know the phrase, how could I rarely sent English but sending an improper one?!
Or, did it give away my true feelings? Did I use the proper one unconsciously?
She said she did care my “I don’t care”. That made me happy, and also made my unhappiness during the 1 hour seemed getting into a fuss about nothing!
But my feelings have been recorded in the form of paintings by my (left) hand. I took advantage of my feelings even it was a negative one. Or was I taking advantage of the whole thing, which truned out to be not the case as I thought, to inspire myself?
Is that why I feel a little sorry facing these pictures?
